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Jennie Bliss

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[Mon Oct 1st, 2007 12:05pm ]
[ mood | chipper ]

oh how i do love you

i do

i do

Make Love01Not War

[Tue May 22nd, 2007 12:17am ]
How could love be so thoughtless, so cruel?
When all, all that I did was for you
Not War

and then i said [Sun May 20th, 2007 1:24pm ]
[ mood | calm ]

how about we just be friends?
I find that I would like it this way much-better

Not War

old brand new is the best [Wed May 16th, 2007 9:29am ]
I will lie awake
Lie for fun and fake the way I hold you
Let you fall for every empty word I say

Barely conscious in the door where you stand
Your eyes are fighting sleep while your mouth makes its demands
You laugh at every word trying hard to be cute
I almost feel sorry for what I'm going to do
And your hair smells of smoke
Who will cast the first stone?
You can sin or spend the night all alone

Brass buttons on your coat hold the cold
In the shape of a heart that they cut out of stone
You're using all your looks that you've thrown from the start
If you let me have my way I swear I'll tear you apart
Cause it's all you can be
You're a drunk and you're scared
It's ladies night, all the girls drink for free

I will lie awake
And lie for fun and fake the way I hold you
Let you fall for every empty word I say
Not War

[Wed May 9th, 2007 3:59pm ]
[ mood | confused ]

i'v never been this confused before. i dont know what to do and its really getting to me. i knew this kind of thing could never workout. but at the same time i was haveing so much fun with it and i was actually happy. then you hurt me and i decide thats it id done convinced myself that it was all over and that id lost you for good. i kept telling myself id never speak to you again but then you came back and you wouldnt leave me alone. you wouldnt stop calling or showing up at my house, im not good with telling people no and of course id take you back because i cant find anybody else. and you seemed to of finally made your decision you wanted to be with me and i was thrilled. but then that thrilled feeling quickly wore off and it just became weird to me. because even from the begining i always knew there wasnt anyway that this could ever work. so i told you how i felt and you got upset and angry, in return makeing me even more upset by saying some of the most hurtful things when all i was trying to do is talk. so once again i told you i never wanted to speak ever..2 days later you show up again, i decide maybe i was a little over exagerant and i start being nice to you again. but the very same day you do it yet again, you hurt my feelings and you do nothing to comfort me exept call me names then leave. you tell me you dont want anything serious when just the day before you were introducing me to your friends as your "girlfriend"..this was the last of it for me and i knew i was fucking done for good. i told you, never to call me, never to see me, i dont want any of this anymore. few days go by and i havnt heard from you but thats a good thing and im once again happily moveing on, but i still guess you dont get it when i said i was done, because once again you start hastling me with messeges and phone calls. im pretty mean at first and am trying to make it obvious that im not interested in speaking with you any longer. but then you get upset, and i cant take hurting somebody like that because i can never take it when its done to me. even if its the same person whos already done it to me once before. i suck at hurting peoples feelings and so i end up falling right back in and out of sympathy im nice to you again..we hangout and everything is going alright, we just act like friends. you call me the next day wanting to hangout but iv already made other plans and you seem a bit dissapointed but i tell you ill call you later. i call you later and by this time i do actually miss you. but you say you cant because you have stuff to do but youll call after and we'll get together. by the time u call im asleep. the next morning i wake up and once again im confused and i dont know what i want and im scared of what you still think of me like always. i freak out again but this time i really had no reason and i apologized. then you picked me up and we hungout with your friends and then we came back to my place, and laid in my bed and cuddled for the first time in days. it felt good and i was happy i was back in your arms. you had to go to school but you told me youd call me whenever you got out and that we'd hangout. you did just so and we hungout with your friends again, when you went to drop me back off at home you seemed kind of weird but then right before i was about to go inside you asked if you could hangout a little..i say of course and we go in and lay there together for a while and everything is good. then i ask you if you want to stay the night and you do! we had a very good night, it was just like old times back when we were good and i was happy with us. even the morning was good..this time you cuddled with me the whole time and called me your baby and kept kissing me everywhere..but it been so long sense we'd been this way and it started to feel weird again..like it was fake, like we were fakeing it to try to make everything seem okay and probably to convince myself that everything was back to normal. but then you wanted to go home and eat, and i said okay and didnt get upset this time because you were leaving me..even though you used to never leave me and you wanted me to go anywhere. im so confused now. i keep wanting to tell you its over and i dont want it anymore. but at the same time i know ill miss you like hell. if i dont i just know one day im going to be another girl you fucked over, im going to look just as stupid as all the rest. my feelings for you were good and i was ready to move on..but now im just confused and im feeling more attached then ever and thats never a good thing. i dont kno what to do anymore. iv told you so many times i was over you, and you always seem to find a way to get me back, you never even take me seriously anymore.

Not War

[Sat May 5th, 2007 4:41am ]
everythings going pretty good & iv been feeling more better about my life lately. i love my friends..and i love weed..i love the both more then anything they are dear to me. i like how everything has been going. its like everything that was never in my control before now is..iv picked up a new hobbie..cleaning..and its going pretty well..you should see my house..i quit everything in my life and now im just clearing my head. but i should get back on track here sometime soon :/ its to scary out here to go back to sleep right now
Not War

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